“A kind of light spread out from her. And everything changed color. And the world opened out. And a day was good to awaken to. And there were no limits to anything. And the people of the world were good and handsome. And I was not afraid any more.” ~ John Steinbeck, East of Eden
So, don't be so quick to pull away from these emotions that you feel. Rather, embrace them, instead.
As, perhaps they are here simply to show you where your own 'closed off' is?
Namaste, my most beautiful friends ~ and know, that I love you in all of your many bumped up and busted up ways.