I am so sick of feeling sick

I have hit my personal wall today ~ I am sick of feeling sick... last night, all I could do was wish for sleep.. but my body hurt so badly, that no matter how much I wished for it.. it wouldn't come. And now, I don't think I have ever been so desperate to sleep - just for a few moments, when my body doesn't hurt. And I am watching my friends - step back one by one. I guess that is just how it goes. Who really wants to be around someone who is sick - I *get* it. *I* wouldn't want to be around that energy. 

I am so tired.